Light, Life, Love, and Chai... with WINGS!

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 14:36:19 GMT

[10:35] PetTrout: Anyway, like I was sayin', salmon is the fruit of the sea. You can barbecue it, boil it, broil it, bake it, saute it. Dey's uh, salmon-kabobs, salmon creole, salmon gumbo. Pan fried, deep fried, stir-fried. There's pineapple salmon, lemon salmon, coconut salmon, pepper salmon, salmon soup, salmon stew, salmon salad, salmon and potatoes, salmon burger, salmon sandwich. That- that's about it.
[10:35] Andi Chan 13: I'm vegan. ^_^

[10:36] PetTrout: do you know my name?
[10:36] Andi Chan 13: yes it says "PetTrout"
[10:36] PetTrout: no, thats not my name, and howd you get my screen name
[10:36] Andi Chan 13: I didn't. You IMed me. :)
[10:37] Andi Chan 13: [10:35] PetTrout: Anyway, like I was sayin', salmon is the fruit of the sea. You can barbecue it, boil it, broil it, bake it, saute it. Dey's uh, salmon-kabobs, salmon creole, salmon gumbo. Pan fried, deep fried, stir-fried. There's pineapple salmon, lemon salmon, coconut salmon, pepper salmon, salmon soup, salmon stew, salmon salad, salmon and potatoes, salmon burger, salmon sandwich. That- that's about it.
[10:37] Andi Chan 13: [10:36] PetTrout: do you know my name?
[10:37] PetTrout: bullshit, ive gotten some trouyt fucker three times now, you fucking imed me first just like last time, and the last time, with some random ass question
[10:37] Andi Chan 13: that's what I received from you ^_^
[10:37] PetTrout: Do you believe in theological determinism?
[10:37] Andi Chan 13: nope, got IM from you first. Looks like we were both trouted!
[10:38] Andi Chan 13: nope but I like chai!
[10:38] PetTrout: the hell is "trouted"
[10:38] Andi Chan 13: it's some bot that IMs random people
[10:39] Andi Chan 13: http://community.livejournal.com/themissinghat
[10:39] PetTrout: well lets kill it
[10:39] Andi Chan 13: dunno how O_O
[10:40] PetTrout: ok, well at least your not an actual bot
[10:40] Andi Chan 13: nope, real live person here. the bot connects random AIM users
[10:40] PetTrout: weird
[10:40] PetTrout: kinda annoying, but wutev
[10:40] Andi Chan 13: if you make public posts on Livejournal it happens. last person I spoke to claimed to not be a Livejournal user tho
[10:41] Andi Chan 13: it can be amusing. I've talked to people in Ireland and Japan
[10:41] PetTrout: im not either
[10:41] Andi Chan 13: weird!
[10:41] PetTrout: does blogger count?
[10:41] Andi Chan 13: actually that might! it may have expanded beyond the LJ base
[10:43] PetTrout: its like some disease haha
[10:43] Andi Chan 13: LOL yes
[10:45] PetTrout: aight well im outa here, gotta work, no hard feelings cursing at you haha
[10:46] Andi Chan 13: lol no sweat. take care!
[10:41] Andi Chan 13: actually that might! it may have expanded beyond the LJ base

O_O

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 14:34:41 GMT

Exhausted. I spent a full week being sick and trying to recover from being sick. I am NEVER doing that again. "Working from home" is awesome, but I really DID work from home and wow, I didn't get any rest nor sleep and I really needed it.

Anyhow, all better now. In case people were wondering where I vanished to. ^_^

I've also gotten back into writing! Oh how I missed it!!

How is everyone?

From the Daily OM

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 00:03:34 GMT

August 11, 2008
Growing Pains
Difficult Times
It can be very challenging to maintain a positive attitude and a measure of faith when you are in the midst of difficult times. This is partly because we tend to think that if the universe loves us we will experience that love in the form of positive circumstances. However, we are like children, and the universe is our wise mother who knows what our souls need to thrive better than we do. Just as a young child does not benefit from getting everything she wants, we also benefit from times of constriction and difficulty to help us grow and learn. If we keep this in mind, and continue to trust that we are loved even when things are hard, it helps us bear the difficult time with grace.

This period of time in history is full of difficulty for a lot of human beings, and you may feel less alone knowing you are not being singled out. There are extreme energy changes pulsing through the universe at every level and, of course, we are all part of the growing process and the growing pains. It helps if we remember that life is one phase after another and that this difficult time will inevitably give way to something new and different. When we feel overwhelmed we can comfort ourselves with the wise saying: This too shall pass.

At the same time, if you truly feel that nothing is going right for you, it’s never a bad idea to examine your life and see if there are some changes you can make to alleviate some of the difficulty. Gently and compassionately exploring the areas giving you the most trouble may reveal things you are holding onto and need to release: unprocessed emotions, unresolved transitions, or negative ways of looking at yourself or reality. As you take responsibility for the things you can change, you can more easily surrender to the things you can’t, remembering all the while that this phase will, without doubt, give way to another.

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 18:06:06 GMT

I'm alive, really!

Tue, 05 Aug 2008 14:04:13 GMT

I've been really busy lately in my studies as a healer and lightworker so I haven't had time to post. ^_^ I'm trying to think of ways to be of benefit versus agonizing over the things I can't do or know just yet.

It's helping. Sorta.

From the Daily OM

Tue, 05 Aug 2008 13:20:09 GMT

August 1, 2008
Taking The Risk
Permission To Be Real

Most of us are familiar with the idea of keeping it real and have an intuitive sense about what that means. People who keep it real don’t hide behind a mask to keep themselves safe from their fear of how they might be perceived. They don’t present a false self in order to appear more perfect, more powerful, or more independent. People who keep it real present themselves as they truly are, the good parts and the parts most of us would rather hide, sharing their full selves with the people who are lucky enough to know them.

Being real in this way is not an easy thing to do as we live in a culture that often shows us images of physical and material perfection. As a result, we all want to look younger, thinner, wealthier, and more successful. We are rewarded externally when we succeed at this masquerade, but people who are real remind us that, internally, we suffer. Whenever we feel that who we are is not enough and that we need to be bigger, better, or more exciting, we send a message to ourselves that we are not enough. Meanwhile, people who are not trying to be something more than they are walk into a room and bring a feeling of ease, humor, and warmth with them. They acknowledge their wrinkles and laugh at their personal eccentricities without putting themselves down.

People like this inspire us to let go of our own defenses and relax for a moment in the truth of who we really are. In their presence, we feel safe enough to take off our masks and experience the freedom of not hiding behind a barrier. Those of us who were lucky enough to have a parent who was able to keep it real may find it easier to be that way ourselves. The rest of us may have to work a little harder to let go of our pretenses and share the beauty and humor of our real selves. Our reward for taking such a risk is that as we do, we will attract and inspire others, giving them the permission to be real too.

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 17:41:35 GMT

"Walk tall as the trees; live strong as the mountians, be gentle as the spring winds, keep the warmth of the summer sun in your heart, and the great spirit will always be with you."
-American Indian Proverb, Unknown tribe

More on Aliael

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 16:20:23 GMT

Taking the first part of the name, Alia... common spelling is apparently "Aliyah" meaning to rise or ascend.

Hm.

Angel of ascension? *grin*

The naming of a cat--er, angel--is a very difficult matter.

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 16:02:28 GMT

There's a name I've been trying to look up for a while that sounded like Aliel or Aliriel.

I believe it's Aliael.

I can't find a damned thing on that name yet, and you know what... I'm rather glad. ^_^ I'd like to be as obscure as possible.

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 14:55:52 GMT

[10:52] BrainyTrout: Oh, goodness, look at my wrist! I've got to go.
[10:55] Andi Chan 13: Your wrist, I'm sure, has a lovely watch. ^_^
[10:55] BrainyTrout: who r u.
[10:56] BrainyTrout: um ok
[10:56] Andi Chan 13: I appear to have been trouted, as are you. ^_^
[10:56] Andi Chan 13: http://community.livejournal.com/themissinghat/info
[10:56] Andi Chan 13: your IM nick shows up to me as "BrainyTrout"
[10:56] Andi Chan 13: I'm rather amused
[10:56] BrainyTrout: um fuck u
[10:57] Andi Chan 13: not my fault! blame the bot
[10:57] Andi Chan 13: I don't know who you are either.
[10:57] Andi Chan 13: ^_^
[10:57] BrainyTrout: weirdo
[10:57] Andi Chan 13: lol
[10:57] Andi Chan 13: yup whoever wrote the bot is a weirdo

What a shame--I got someone seriously rude on the other end! Usually they're pretty friendly and curious about the whole thing and just play along.

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 14:49:53 GMT

From kezih_rose:

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Quality Time

<th colspan="2">My Detailed Results:</th>

Quality Time:	10
Physical Touch:	8
Acts of Service:	7
Words of Affirmation:	5
Receiving Gifts:	0

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

Take the Quiz!
Check out the Book

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 20:52:37 GMT

If you use Google my new email is starry.wings13@gmail.com

I felt it was time for a change. ^_^

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 13:05:47 GMT

[09:03] MetallicTrout: It ain't easy bein' white, it ain't easy bein' brown...
[09:03] Andi Chan 13: It ain't easy being green or purple either. ^_^
[09:04] MetallicTrout: haha.
[09:04] MetallicTrout: who am I talking to?
[09:05] Andi Chan 13: Apparently we have been trouted. ^_^ Your name shows up as MetallicTrout. This link will tell you more: http://community.livejournal.com/themissinghat/info
[09:06] MetallicTrout: weird, you sign up to use this?
[09:06] Andi Chan 13: nope. it just happens if you post to lj and have your AIM nick in your profile. ^_^
[09:07] MetallicTrout: cool where you from?
[09:07] MetallicTrout: it's early here
[09:09] Andi Chan 13: 9am here. :)
[09:09] Andi Chan 13: From Boston

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 12:59:38 GMT

I am contemplating renaming my lj but I dunno to what yet.

Good weekend, busy weekend, but exhausting. I dragged myself out of bed this morning and this morning came WAY too early.

From the Daily OM

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 14:20:12 GMT

July 25, 2008
Feeling Threatened
Afraid Of The Truth

Most of us have had the experience of being in possession of a piece of truth that we were afraid to share because we knew it would not be well received. There are also instances in which we ourselves have been unable to handle some truth confronting us. This might be a small truth, such as not wanting to see that our car needs repairs because we don’t want to pay for them, or a large truth, such as not fully accepting that someone close to us is pushing us away. Usually the truth is evident, and we can see it if we choose, but we have elaborate ways of hiding the truth form ourselves, no matter how apparent it is.

For the most part, we avoid the truth because it scares us, or makes us angry, or makes us feel like we don’t know what to do. We often create our lives based on a particular understanding, and if that understanding turns out to be fully or even partially incorrect, we may feel that our whole sense of reality is being threatened. It takes a strong person to face the truth in circumstances like these, and many of us run for cover instead. Nevertheless, we can only avoid the truth for so long before it begins to make itself known in ever more forceful ways.

Ultimately, there is no way to avoid the truth, no matter how painful it is, so the sooner we let down our defenses, the better. When we know the truth and accept that we may have to adjust our lives to accommodate, we are in alignment with reality. At the same time, we can be patient with people around us who have a hard time seeing the truth, because we know how painful it can be. Whatever the truth is, we make a sincere effort not to close our eyes to it, but instead to be grateful that we have access to it.

From one of my emailing lists!

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 14:54:59 GMT

What if your main job in life was simply to be happy? How would you start and end your day? What would you do this week to play more, feel lighter, more free and alive? When you choose this higher energetic frequency that's full of love, joy and gratitude, you'll start manifesting all of sorts of glorious things and experiences! With happiness, you can also overcome any constricting emotions like sadness, frustration, guilt, desperation and fear. They simply drop when you are devoted to embodying this Divine state within. Happiness is simply a conscious choice that you can make in each moment of your life no matter what is occurring in your outer world. You can always choose to appreciate who you are and what you have. You can feel this joy inside for no reason at all. Simply choose to be an unstoppable ball of light, love and joy!

"Happiness is a conscious choice, not an automatic response." ~ Mildred Barthel

Your job as a spiritual being is to go beyond playing those "unhappy roles" and step into being the Divine human being you really are. All of those unhappy thoughts, feelings are just caused by thinking patterns...they are not who you truly are. You are much bigger than a handful of thoughts, you are consciousness itself! Simply choose to see that you are always already free from needing "this or that" in order to be happy. You don't need anything or have to figure out anything in life to be happier in this moment. Simply realize the truth of who and what you already are. You are the Source of Love and Happiness itself! Once you truly realize this, happiness will find you. Surrender to your greatest experience of happiness right now. Find your most authentic expression of boundless joy and freedom and express it! This simply creates more happin ess. Once you continuously vibrate at this level, the Universe will reward you with even more satisfying experiences that snowball into manifesting even happier feelings and experiences!
"Act happy, feel happy, be happy, without a reason in the world. Then you can love, and do what you will."
~ Dan Millman

Things manifest much easier when you stop forcing them, and so is the same with happiness. You cannot force happiness by looking for things "out there" to make you more happy "in here". Simply refocus on how much joy is available from being who and what you already are. Remember, you are the God Source itself. What is better than that? You can manifest anything you want when you learn how to become more attuned to this Divine Source within. You will be well taken care of. Everything you want and need to manifest is going to manifest. All the details will take care of themselves. Just relax and be happy! Happiness is your main mission in life and it is always available. Believe it and you will see it for yourself.

"Life is a mystery to be lived, not a problem to be solved." ~Osho
The greatest secret we've discovered to experiencing a perpetual state of happiness is to remain completely present to the "now" moment in whatever activity you are engaged in. The more you can be completely absorbed by the NOW, the more your energy expands which allows you to feel higher about life! This intentional alignment with the moment allows you to access your Divine authentic self, whereas worrying about the past or future takes you directly into the grips of the ego where unhappiness is. In fact, unhappiness happens only when the ego believes that something else should be happening. When you live consistently in the present moment with your full presence, you attune to the HUM and natural rhythm of this Divine existence. There is such beauty and joy found in what is here now.
"Be a dynamo of irrepressible joy! If you are in peace, I am at peace. If you are happy, I am happy! Be happy!" ~Mahavatar Babaji

It's good to know that you can manifest anything you want easily, effortlessly and even instantly in this physical world. Manifesting is much easier than you have imagined. All you ever have to do is let your true joyful self shine. Watch out for that part of you that's stuck trying to figure it all out. Every time you try to "figure everything out", you actually constrict your energy and start operating out of the head and forget the heart. Happiness is found from living from the heart. You are not here to just live up in your head and try to figure it all of life out. If you became "Mr. or Miss Smarty Pants" you would stop growing, evolving and forget your happiness mission. The student in life always learns more than the teacher who has all the answers. Always be a student of life. Be curious! Play a little everyday and learn how to enjoy whatever you are doing. The Universe will reward you greatly.

I can has salmon!

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 16:01:36 GMT

[12:00] MurderousTrout: Attention: If you are pissed off about your shitty life or are just generally an asshole, please do not reply.
[12:00] Andi Chan 13: I will reply because my life is unshitty and I'm a pretty ok gal. ^_^
[12:01] MurderousTrout: Well that's good. Having a shitty life would be rather unpleasant.
[12:02] Andi Chan 13: yes. and unpleasant things do suck the big one. I prefer drinking chai and watching sunsets.
[12:04] MurderousTrout: I'm not a huge fan of Chai really. Not much for tea. I'm all about coffee though.
[12:04] Andi Chan 13: coffee is good. I rarely drink it but it's good stuff. I'll go for coffee flavored coffee if it's STRONG coffee
[12:08] MurderousTrout: Yeah... I have this crazy coffee machine. It was expensive but it makes really good coffee.
[12:09] MurderousTrout: Damn... now I really want some coffee.
[12:10] MurderousTrout: But it is all the way up the stairs and I am so tired and I don't feel like heading up there right now.
[12:11] Andi Chan 13: aw... but it's worth it! cooooffeeeeee...
[12:12] MurderousTrout: I agree it is pretty worth it and all I need to do is press one button and the coffee will be made... and then I will enjoy an amazingly awesome cup of awesome.
[12:12] Andi Chan 13: a cup of awesome is wonderful
[12:12] Andi Chan 13: makes Wednesdays go by fast
[12:13] MurderousTrout: It's true. Although I don't have any particular problem with Wednesdays.
[12:15] Andi Chan 13: well it's the half done-half to go thing. I like to look at it as "half done", so I'm halfway to the weekend. I guess this makes me an optimist!

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 15:57:52 GMT

If there are one or more people on your friends list who make your world a better place just because they exist, and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the Internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

From the Daily OM

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 13:29:55 GMT

Tending Your Own Energy Field
Fill Yourself from the Inside Out

Life presents us with many opportunities to gain mastery in tending our own energy fields. At times we may want to protect ourselves by using energy shields of color, light or angelic presence. Or in order to become more grounded, we may run energy down through our feet or first chakra, rooting ourselves to the earth. Sometimes it’s appropriate to play openly with others in an expansive, flowing state; and at other times, we may want to limit our availability to a chosen few. In certain public environments such as graduation ceremonies, work conventions, or even weddings, it may be important to remain open-hearted and able to connect, while still preventing our individual systems from depletion or overwhelm. In these situations, rather than putting a barrier between ourselves and the world around us, we can fill our energy fields from the inside out. In doing this, we become so filled with our own personal energy that no room is left for outside influences or discordant energy to enter in and affect us.

When you need to connect with people on a one-to-one basis, separate from the bustling environment around you, here is a visualization technique you might try. You can start in the morning and repeat any time as needed. Begin by taking a few moments to breathe deeply and relax. When you are calm and present, envision a ball of light in your solar plexus area just above your belly button. Allow it to build there, growing stronger and stronger. Eventually, allow the light to expand throughout the rest of your body until it fills your entire physical and energetic field.

By filling yourself with your own energy in this way, you become fortified with your own power. You retain access to all of your intuitive and mental abilities. And, you are able to act from a loving space in the midst of any situation.

From the Daily OM

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 19:35:30 GMT

Tending Your Own Energy Field
Fill Yourself from the Inside Out

Life presents us with many opportunities to gain mastery in tending our own energy fields. At times we may want to protect ourselves by using energy shields of color, light or angelic presence. Or in order to become more grounded, we may run energy down through our feet or first chakra, rooting ourselves to the earth. Sometimes it’s appropriate to play openly with others in an expansive, flowing state; and at other times, we may want to limit our availability to a chosen few. In certain public environments such as graduation ceremonies, work conventions, or even weddings, it may be important to remain open-hearted and able to connect, while still preventing our individual systems from depletion or overwhelm. In these situations, rather than putting a barrier between ourselves and the world around us, we can fill our energy fields from the inside out. In doing this, we become so filled with our own personal energy that no room is left for outside influences or discordant ener! gy to enter in and affect us.

When you need to connect with people on a one-to-one basis, separate from the bustling environment around you, here is a visualization technique you might try. You can start in the morning and repeat any time as needed. Begin by taking a few moments to breathe deeply and relax. When you are calm and present, envision a ball of light in your solar plexus area just above your belly button. Allow it to build there, growing stronger and stronger. Eventually, allow the light to expand throughout the rest of your body until it fills your entire physical and energetic field.

By filling yourself with your own energy in this way, you become fortified with your own power. You retain access to all of your intuitive and mental abilities. And, you are able to act from a loving space in the midst of any situation.

Work is good!

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 15:31:30 GMT

Yay for purple glitter, jeans, tank tops and sandals to work! ^_^

Oh how I love this job!

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 00:15:20 GMT

This is pure love:

From the Daily OM

Mon, 21 Jul 2008 15:18:56 GMT

Remembering the Moment
Enjoying Life

Life, in all of its fullness, is happening right now. While our thoughts are sometimes elsewhere, beautiful opportunities and moments are being passed over and lost to the flow of time. And though we cannot possibly fully experience each leaf that falls to the ground, sometimes we get so attached to reaching our goals that we don’t pay attention to the wonder all around us. When we do that, we live in a world that exists only in our heads, while we miss life itself. There is so much to be enjoyed and appreciated that we need to remember to pay attention to the present moment, because it is the only space in which we can experience being alive.

We learn from our past, but dwelling on it keeps us from being fully present to life in the moment. We create our lives with our thoughts, but focusing so firmly on our imagined future keeps us from co-creating with the universe, so we might never allow ourselves to live our dreams as they manifest. It’s possible to be so happy and comfortable in our inner worlds that we lose touch with the business of life. We may enjoy spending large portions of time in meditation, or focused on our thoughts.

Life must be attended to, and if we are wise, we can enjoy it at the same time. We can awaken ourselves to the moment we are living right now by taking a deep breath and simply looking around. In doing so, we refocus our attention to our location in the real world. Then we can learn to appreciate the process of working toward our goals as much as their attainment. Balancing ourselves between the present moment and eternity, we can experience and enjoy the full range of reality available to us as spiritual beings living on earth.

I been fished again! ^_^

Mon, 21 Jul 2008 15:04:53 GMT

[11:00] smolderingsalmon: What is this? Who are you? Where am I?
[11:01] Andi Chan 13: you are... THE NAVIGATOR!
[11:03] smolderingsalmon: Hello Mr. Memon!
[11:03] smolderingsalmon: We've been... expecting you
[11:04] Andi Chan 13: is there punch and pie?
[11:30] smolderingsalmon: Unfortunate no.
[11:30] smolderingsalmon: Just a whiteboy bustin' ass at work
[11:33] Andi Chan 13: no punch and pie here at work either. it's very sad
[11:34] smolderingsalmon: We do have sugar cookies.
[11:34] Andi Chan 13: no cookies even. just tea. lots of tea
[11:34] Andi Chan 13: I like tea
[11:34] smolderingsalmon: Just not that much of it

IM contact info

Mon, 21 Jul 2008 14:58:57 GMT

It's on my user info for the world to see but if people wish to IM me I'm on the following:

Google: andichan13@gmail.com
Yahoo: andichan13
AIM: andichan13

Please note that while I'm logged in often it doesn't always mean I'm at the computer. ^_^ I work on websites for a living so I'm online a lot.